and that worries me...yeah..

niewayx..baby called tadi =) today he's extra hyper and talkative? yea..part of me find it a relieve cos he's like back to his old nice guy person...another part of me finds it...F I S H Y..

im turning into a paranoid...

big time paranoid...

nothing interesting happened today. nothing to do now too. i am b o r e d. been TRYING to clean my room today....cleaned part of it then lazy, i left it for tomorrow. talk about procrastinating(sp?) yearrh...

can i say im a bitch. i just seem so...depressing? uninteresting? and so pessimistic? i dont really know what to make of this. i cant help but think twice or even more trice about trivial things. and sometimes i would even chant a mantra to myself 'take things at its face value' over and over again. and a few minutes after that i'll be cross-analysing things. sheesh. i'll be thinking or pros and cons and get all insecure and scared and defensive....i need to get back to my cheerful self. maybe i just have too much times on my hand. i feel like there's no purpose in life? yeaaa...thats kinda sad aite. haven't been writing in my diary. n i kinda feel guilty about it. and i have a feeling i'll be regretting it. cos i like to read my entries over n over reminiscing the past. yea yea..i feel old already. haixx...waderhell am i suppose to do now..

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