no not love

not happiness

not having that natural highs of life

nope not that one...

this one is really special..

the feeling of u being emo n being a neutral party to all for no reason

being nice to people you rather not be in contact or barely know

having a nice long talk with your closed ones...

feeling like that's the last great conversations you'll have

yep that feeling...

the feeling of you'll be brought away soon

very soon indeed...

far away..so far they dont even have a map for it..

the idea of your last moments were THESE...

and you know you wont have any regrets

and you know you'll be smiling

yet there's a little tinge of sadness in you that'll forever be in ur heart that you hope will mend soon...

and you know this feelings will all be gone..

and then u realise 'I've lived a life..'

not necessarily a fufilling one

but i lived one with full of memories..

[thank you]